Lately I’ve been going through hell at my job, and it’s extremely depressing. I know that the only thing I really enjoy and that I’m passionate about is writing. I’ve always had this notion to help people through my writing, so I really want to get serious with my writing. I’m searching for writing gigs, and I also want to start my own freelance writing business. I know to start my own business I need to do a lot of research and market myself. I would just rather work for myself than deal with the headache of working for other people. I’m determined to rise and be an inspiration.
Today I took a leap of faith and did something bold. I’ve been trying to land my dream job, but I haven’t had any luck yet. I want to be a writer. I was looking through Our State magazine, which is a magazine based in North Carolina. I’ve applied for a position there a couple of times, but I hadn’t had any success. While I was looking through the magazine I came across the Letter from the Editor section and I thought hit me. Why not try to reach out to the editor personally about my desire to work on her magazine and see what she says? So I wrote a letter to the editor and told her that writing was my dream and this is something that I want to do and that I applied for a job position a couple of times with Our State. I told her that I would love to set up an interview with her. Sometimes you just have to be bold to get what you want. I don’t know if it will work but it’s worth a shot.
“The death of an artist is to get a degree and start teaching.”~Cedric Baker
*When I did my interview with Cedric Baker one of the questions I asked him was what has his journey been like as an artist. I was building off of his art exhibit theme, which is entitled “A Painter’s Journey.” I wanted to know more about what his journey was like getting to the point he is at now. Like all artist, he said he struggled to make money. As many people know the arts is something that one can be passionate about and that’s all we as artists want to do. All we want to do is create what we love, but then we get stuck in the dilemma of whether to pursue our dreams or go with a practical job to make enough money to provide for ourselves. That’s the age old struggle Cedric Baker dealt with as well when he was trying to make it as an artist. He talked about having to work a full time job because he had bills and he said as an artist that’s hard because you can’t be 100% focused on your art when you’re working a 9 to 5 job. Then he also made that above statement about a degree and teaching being the death of an artist. Although, I think he was putting more emphasis on the teaching part because he is also an academic artist. He went to school for art and his discipline was in painting. I agree with him on the teaching part to a degree. I think it would be difficult to teach and also completely be committed to what you really want to do. There have been many folks who have tried to push me into teaching just because I have an English degree and that’s not something that I’m passionate about. I tried to get passionate about it, but my heart has always been with writing. That’s all I want to do. Like I said in one of my previous posts, when I conducted my interview with Baker I walked out of that interview feeling so accomplished. I felt like it was another sign telling me that THIS is what I need and want to be doing. The interview went that well! On the other hand, don’t get me wrong. Teaching is an admirable profession. It’s a way to pass on your love of a particular subject to another generation and see what they do with it. I just don’t think teaching is for me. There have been many people who have said I would be a great teacher, but if I’m not completely 100% passionate about it I don’t think it’s a field that I should go into. I’ve realized that I should stop listening to other people and do what I know is right for me no matter how long it takes me to land that job I really want. Cedric definitely gave me some encouragement that day. It doesn’t matter if you’re not getting paid for it as long as you’re doing what you love.
Today I had to conduct my first interview for the Carolina Monthly. At first I was really nervous because I haven’t conducted an interview since the last time I wrote for my college newspaper back in 2013. I interviewed Cedric Baker who has an art exhibit right now in Goldsboro, NC. It was really fascinating talking to him about his experience as an artist and where he gets his ideas from. I walked out of that interview feeling amazing. I literally walked out exhaling a sigh of joy because I realized THIS is what I want to do. The experience of interviewing someone and getting their thoughts and getting a deeper portrait of them was incredible. I had great interview questions, we were conversational, and Cedric Baker was really a great person to interview. He gave me a lot to work with. It made me realize that I really do have great interviewing skills. It was just really amazing and I am so proud of myself for my accomplishment today. Below is Cedric Baker in front of some of his artwork.