Writing for me has always been an outlet it seems. Whenever I’m going through things writing is always there. It’s a way to express myself without feeling judgment from others and lately I have been particularly stressed out and anxious about certain things, which is why I decided to write a poem off the top of my head. I quite often get moments like those when I’m dealing with something and I wish I could just find the right words to showcase how I’m feeling. Here is the poem that I wrote:
I feel like I’m drowning
With no support
Lost at sea with anxiety filled rage
Needing to scream but I can hardly even breathe
I feel like I’m stuck in time
Drowning beyond belief
With nothing in view
But my own fears and insecurities
*I feel like my poetry can be of service to some people. Sometimes people feel like they have no one to understand them, and my goal as a writer is to connect with people, to let others know that they’re not alone in this fight. It’s like one of my favorite Steinbeck quotes says, “A writer, out of loneliness, is like a distant star sending signals.” I always feel that quote so deeply because I truly understand. As a writer we’re trying to find other like us, who understand where we’re coming from. Writing can be a very therapeutic hobby and it can honestly help you assess your feelings and situation.
I just love music. As I sit here listening to Jerry Lee Lewis on my Pandora I just think about how my heart swells when I listen to music that I truly enjoy. I literally listen to everything. I don’t care what genre or decade it is music fills my heart with joy.
So about a month ago I watched the Netflix series “Anne with an E,” which is based off of the beloved series by L.M. Montgomery. For those who don’t know the series revolves around an orphan girl named Anne who is taken in by a brother and sister who live on a farm. Anne has such an infectious personality that it’s hard not to fall in love with her. I had never read the series before until now. I’m in the middle of reading while also reading other things. The Netflix series is what got me interested in the first place. Let’s first discuss the Netflix series. From the very first moment I absolutely fell in love with it. I felt like I could relate to Anne because she’s very much a dreamer and she sees the beauty in everything. I thought that was a very endearing quality about her. She romanticized people and objects. It’s like she constantly has stars in her eyes. Of course, there have been reviews on the series and surprisingly to me, there have been a lot of negative reviews. There have been positive reviews also, but the negative reviews really surprised me. The negative reviews have said how the Netflix series veers too much away from the source material and that the Netflix series is much darker than the book. I’m assuming that the reviewers are referring to some of the flashbacks that Anne has when she thinks back to the abuse that she endured while she was living with other people before she lived with the Cuthberts. Personally, I don’t see them as dark. Like one positive reviewer pointed out, it’s real life. The Anne in this series still keeps her familiar charm and precociousness, and she is still the lovable Anne that people have come to know and love because of L.M. Montgomery.
I am so excited! For the past couple of days story ideas have just been hitting me out of nowhere and at the most random times. So yesterday I was driving to work and I was behind somebody and I thought to myself, “what if the person in front of me looked in their rear view mirror and could look right at me?” It kind of gave me a Twilight Zone feel and I love the old 50s/60s Twilight Zone series with Rod Sterling and then today I thought of another story idea. It was a murder mystery. So I’m a janitor and I was cleaning the bathroom today and I just wondered to myself, “what if I was to find someone dead in one of these bathroom stalls?” I know I have a very morbid mind sometimes, but it has helped me come up with these great story ideas lately. I love when I’m on a roll like this and when I have these creative ideas. I have bits and pieces of my stories, but I still have to flesh some things out to make them coherent. I look forward to sharing my writing with you and the writing process.
Wouldn’t it be absolutely wonderful to be able to work in a bookstore? Right now I am sitting in Books-A-Million getting ready to fill out my third (I think) application with them. Today I needed a place where I could escape for a couple of hours and get out of my house. At first I was going to go to the library, but then I remembered that we do have a Books-A-Million in town that I never go to and I’m glad I did come here but also regretting it at the same time seeing as I don’t have any money but that’s another story. After being here for awhile I asked the lady are they hiring and she said that they are always taking applications. I know I’ve filled out an application at least three time here, but this would seriously be my dream job and I have so many ideas that I would want to implement already. I don’t this BAM does any kind of events to get more people coming to their store. I think they should be doing open mic nights, poetry readings, hosting local book authors or something to get more traffic coming to their store. I’ve applied multiple times before so it kind of makes me discouraged to try again but I’m going to anyway. Being surrounded by books is my happy place, quite literally and I know I would be the right employee. I love the thought of talking with customers about one of my favorite things or recommending certain books. It sounds like utter bliss! Well, I’m going to fill out this application while I sit in the store that holds my job seeking fate in their hands. Send me good vibes!
Well, in an earlier blog I talked about Lukas Graham and how I am a big fan. He is definitely a gem in the music industry. I believe he gained notoriety in the States from his single “7 years,” which is absolutely one of my favorite songs by the band. I should add here that Lukas Graham is a band and not just one person, although the front man of the group is Lukas Graham and they are from Denmark. In this blog I really wanted to talk about another one of Lukas Graham’s songs which is “Funeral.” The moment I heard it on YouTube I instantly fell in love with it. You know the moment you hear a good song and you have to cock your head a little bit and say “oh my goodness..this is pure genius!” Yeah, that was basically me in a nutshell. So the song is basically about this guy who dies but he doesn’t want his friends to be sad about. There’s a line towards the beginning of the song that says, “Everyone welcome to my funeral, everyone I know better be wasted…” It’s like he saying to just celebrate his life and have a few drinks. It’s really supposed to be an uplifting song in my opinion because not only are the lyrics somewhat encouraging but the whole vibe of the song really has a spiritual/gospel like, almost soulful quality about it. That is one thing about Lukas Graham though. He is a very soulful singer and to be who is that is amazing and I thoroughly enjoy his music. I would definitely love to see him in concert.