Orchestra

I’ve been in the band since I was in the 6th grade, and when I was in school it was truly the only one thing that made my day suck less. I remember the moment I knew I wanted to play the clarinet. I was at a 5th grade assembly because the middle school band director had come to recruit 5th graders to be in the band for the next year. When we got to go up and look at the instruments I knew INSTANTLY that I wanted to play the clarinet. It’s like it was calling out to me. I don’t if it had to do with the sleek look of with its black body and silver keys. I thought it was beautiful! But anyway I told my mom as soon as I got home that day and I remember that summer before 6th grade she took me to Raleigh to get my clarinet. Those are some of my fondest memories. Earlier today I was taking a trip down memory lane and searching on YouTube and listening to some of the music that we played when I was in the high school concert band (I played the clarinet/bass clarinet). We played some really awesome songs. There was a lot of Robert W. Smith and David Holsinger. I think those two composers were my band teacher’s favorites. As I was listening to a few songs today I had an appreciation for the music. I mean I’ve always had an appreciation. I loved the music back then when I was playing it in high school, but I guess since I haven’t heard it so long it was like music to my ears…quite literally. It’s amazing how when you hear orchestral composition and all of the instruments come together and just work off of each other. At one point in the music all the instruments could be playing together and then the next measure most of the instruments fall back allowing one particular instrument to shine throughout that one part because the composer wrote it that way. It’s a beautiful thing when the instruments just meld together like one cohesive joint. There’s so much that can be going on in one piece of music but it just works and it just comes together beautifully. Band is life. Below I’ve posted a couple of the songs that we played in high school.

Book collecting

I just recently realized that my hobby is collecting books. I’ve always loved books and today I was in Books-A-Million and I saw so many books that I wanted. I saw this an illustrated editiom of Homer’s The Odyssey and it looked magnificient. One day my dream is to have home library. I have so many books already. I mean there is nothing like resding a good book. Now I’m on a Stephen King kick. I just finished reading IT a couple of weeks ago and now I’m reading Salem’s Lot. Reading can just take you so many places.

Romance movies

So I was watching clips from romance movies om YouTube and I was scrolling through the comments and one comment triggered a thought in my head that made me want to write a blog about romance movies. This person said, “I’m watching romantic scenes from movies because I have no life.” Why do people like looking up romantic scenes from their favorite movies? Today I watched the ending scenes of A Cinderella Story starring Hilary Duff, Bring it On starring Kirsten Dunst, and 10 Things I Hate About You starring Julia Stiles and Heath Ledger. All great movies and all ending in a kiss where the girl gets the guy of her dreams after overcoming some type of obstacles because let’s face it, love is never easy, right? But some might argue that these romantic movies set an unrealistic standard of what love really is. I don’t completely disagree. I think these kind of movies can set you up for high expectatioms and it’s mostly women that view these types of movies. I’ve even seen some YouTube comments after watching the Hilary Duff clip that says they were disappointed when they got to high school because that’s the kind of high school experience they were expecting. Some people might say that this is damaging and can remove a person from reality, but I say what’s wrong with escaping from reality every now and then as long as you know real life doesn’t end like most movies. I like watching romance movies because they send butterflies through my stomach and make my heart flutter and I love that feeling.

Jim Carrey: Actor, comedian, and….amazing artist?!

Jim Carrey has had a long career. He’s an accomplished actor and in my opinion one of the funniest men in America. Carrey has played notable roles such as the Grinch, God, a father who couldn’t lie for one whole day, Ace Ventura, and the Mask. We also can’t forget about the role that made him a break out star in the 90s with the skit comedy show In Living Color. All of his roles have been extremely humorous, memorable, and brought a smile to people’s faces, but when you think about Jim Carrey do you consider an individual who is deep, introspective, and an incredible painter? Recently there was a video that came out, which  was a six minute documentary about Jim Carrey and his art. He talked about why he paints and his inspiration. He discussed briefly about being a kid and when he wasn’t performing for family his bedroom was his refuge where he would sketch, which most introverts like myself can relate to. I was so awestruck by his paintings. They were incredibly beautiful and definitely told a story. There was one picture that he painted of Jesus, and he says that he doesn’t know if Jesus was real but he always imagined what Jesus would be and his description and depiction of Jesus was absolutely stellar. He describes Jesus as being someone that every ethnicity can relate to and he feels that every ethnicity sees Jesus as themselves. He wanted to capture the expression of Jesus’ eyes and he wanted to capture Jesus’ accepting nature, and he pulls it off. Honestly, if Jim Carrey was to sell his art I would buy it in a heartbeat. It’s just so amazing to see this side of Jim Carrey because the acting roles that he usually gets he always plays these over the top characters, so it’s really nice to see the man behind the mask. Who is Jim Carrey? More often than not he has been a man who makes us cry with laughter, but he’s also a very deep being. I love him even more for that. Below are some of his paintings that were in the documentary and that I found extremely stunning. I’ve also posted the six minute documentary. Let me know your thoughts!

Book vs. Movie: Stephen King’s IT edition

As the saying usually goes, the book is ALWAYS better than the movie and this is no exception to the rule. In my journey preparing for the new adaptation of Stephen King’s IT I finished reading the massive book about a week ago and tonight I decided to watch the 1990 miniseries with Tim Curry and honestly, it’s not all its cracked up to be. Maybe it’s because I’m older and never watched it as a child, but it’s more corny and cheesy than scary. I know a lot of people rave about Tim Curry’s performance, but even his performance to me was really cheesy. It almost didn’t even creep me out. The one part that I did find creepy was when they were flipping through Mike’s old photo album when they were kids and the picture came to life and Pennywise came out of it, but other than that it didn’t terrify me. Like I said before though, maybe it’s because I’m older. On the bright side, I did enjoy the parts they kept faithful to the book like in the beginning with Mrs. Denbrough playing the piano or the epic rock fight when their group of six becomes the Lucky 7. I haven’t seen the new movie yet but I think this new movie is going to be way better. Just from watching the trailer you can tell that the tone is dark and I believe that they’re going to do a great job of building tension (which the miniseries doesn’t do a good job) and Bill Skarsgård’s look is just perfect. They do a really good job of playing up the childishness of Pennywise in his first appearance in the trailer. I’m extremely excited to see this movie and we only have 29 more days to go!

Writing out your emotions

Writing for me has always been an outlet it seems. Whenever I’m going through things writing is always there. It’s a way to express myself without feeling judgment from others and lately I have been particularly stressed out and anxious about certain things, which is why I decided to write a poem off the top of my head. I quite often get moments like those when I’m dealing with something and I wish I could just find the right words to showcase how I’m feeling. Here is the poem that I wrote:

I feel like I’m drowning
With no support
Lost at sea with anxiety filled rage
Needing to scream but I can hardly even breathe
I feel like I’m stuck in time
Drowning beyond belief
With nothing in view
But my own fears and insecurities

*I feel like my poetry can be of service to some people. Sometimes people feel like they have no one to understand them, and my goal as a writer is to connect with people, to let others know that they’re not alone in this fight. It’s like one of my favorite Steinbeck quotes says, “A writer, out of loneliness, is like a distant star sending signals.” I always feel that quote so deeply because I truly understand. As a writer we’re trying to find other like us, who understand where we’re coming from. Writing can be a very therapeutic hobby and it can honestly help you assess your feelings and situation.